You know that feeling when you’re so sure you just came up with the most brilliant idea ever?
That was me this morning.
I was so excited because I thought I’d finally found the perfect way to share my daily life adventures and my webnovel progress in one account.
You see, when I was 20, I knew I wanted to be an artist to share my stories. It just took me almost 15 years to figure out what kind of artist I really am : a writer. (and why it took me so long? That’s a secret I’ll reveal in a future post, so stay tuned 😉 )
Two weeks ago, I finally started my first writing project: a fantasy webnovel. For the first time in forever, I woke up every day excited. I had a reason to get out of bed, a real goal, and that spark of creating something new that I’d been missing for years.
But like always, my “storyteller brain” wanted to share the journey. Partly because I love sharing stories, but also because (let’s be honest) I hoped of gathering potential readers and already start building a little fanbase.
And that’s when things started to slip.
In my head, the blog idea felt clear, but the moment I tried to write the first article… nothing came out. it was so easy when I worked on my chapters so why I couldn’lt now ? And that’s how , yesterday, I spent the whole day on this “not-so-new project” and made zero progress.
So this morning, I was worried. I’ve failed enough times to know the signs , and I didn’t want to go down that road again. Writing my webnovel matters more than anything …. but I still had that deep itch to share my daily life.
So I set one goal for today: write one article, publish it, and share it.
If I couldn’t, I’d let go of the idea and focus only on the novel.
While making my to-do list, I started rethinking my brands… and that’s when the “brilliant new idea” hit me: a personal account where I can post freely and embrace the chaos. No overthinking, no perfect layouts. Just me.
For someone like me, who freezes whenever things aren’t perfect, that’s both scary and exciting. But maybe this challenge is exactly what I need to stay on the road toward my dreams.
Excited, I opened Tumblr to finally create this brand-new, personal account… only to freeze.
Because there it was.
Past-me — five months ago — had already done it.
Yep. The blog existed. The name, the idea, even the first article. And let me tell you… it was perfect. Every word captured exactly what I was thinking today.
I couldn’t help but laugh at myself. Here I was, feeling like a genius for coming up with a brilliant idea… that I had apparently already had.
Classic Yuki.
But then a little sadness crept in. I remembered all the times I’d tried and failed before. For a moment, I felt that familiar fear of being stuck forever in the same circle of doubt and giving up on my dreams.
And then… I caught myself.
This time was different. I finally found what truly excites me. My webnovel is my real goal. The blog is just a tool, a medium, not the destination. Suddenly, the path feels clear. I can see the steps now because I finally know where I’m going.
It’s like I was trying to put together a puzzle without the picture on the box. I could start connecting pieces, but I had no idea what it was supposed to become. That’s why motivation was hard to keep, and giving up was easy. Now I finally see the picture , and honestly I can’t help thinking, “Omg, I love that picture! I want it!”.
As long as I keep visualizing my dream, I’m sure I won’t fail again (future will tell me if I’m wrong, XD).
Suddenly I feel happy. Maybe the idea hasn’t changed, but I sure have. It’s the same dream, but a new version of me is chasing it : mind clearer, more determined.
I can’t wait to see what happens next , and who knows , maybe past-me has already left me another surprise…
The Lessons
Sometimes a project fails not because you’re bad at it, but because it’s not really what you want… or the goal isn’t clear yet… or maybe it’s not the project, it’s just you not ready.
The key is to really define what you want, be specific, clearly visualize it, learn from your mistakes, and keep trying. That’s how we finally move forward.
If you keep giving up on a project, maybe it’s not really what you want… or maybe you just haven’t found your true goal yet. Take the time to define it, visualize it , clarity makes all the difference.
And who knows? Tomorrow might bring an idea that feels old… but this time, you’ll be ready.
I hope you enjoyed today’s episode. Follow me if you want to see what happens next!